4. Positive Attitude: “Hard work and perseverance, love of self and working towards a better life for you and those around you sum up a positive and loving attitude” – Maria Sheridan
Being positive has
cured many illnesses, saved lives, gained people riches monetarily and otherwise,
helped people fulfill dreams given hope when there could have been none, or even
just gotten someone through the next moment or hour or day, week , month and
year. To possess an Attitude of
Gratitude one must be positively engaged in a good cause, constantly looking to
the now and creating a wealth of emotion that will spur you on that will help
you to examine all the great things going on in front of you EVEN IF THAT IS
THE SIMPLE FACT THAT YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING!
My experience of
being in that first Hostel was not very pleasant, and whilst I found ways to
help keep me positive and have a good sense of humor, I kept hitting brick
walls. I had a few experiences that really scared me and almost broke my
spirit. I also had some funny experiences that I took to my parents every day.
DAY 3: 13th
January 2012. I'm sitting on the stairs of the hostel waiting to get out. It's
7 am and the security guy had his bed across the doorway so no one could get
out until he got up. It didn't take me long to figure out I was not alone. I
heard a guy’s voice say in a thick Dublin accent that at that hour of the
morning he resembled that of a lawnmower.... Ahhhh luvvvvvvv speaking through
his nose, don't mind me I'm writin a rap! (The lyrics...Emer left me Emer left
me we wor on de Luas goin to Tallaght an Emer left me (I thought... Lucky for
Emer). Fast forward time to a couple a weeks after to a conversation I had and
they said that sounds like Tommy the Junkie rapper on FB. So I YouTube'd him
and lo and behold it was him.
Day 4: 14th
January 2014. This morning I went to Castle Street where I would receive an
emergency payment until my social welfare Job seekers allowance is set up. It
is a depressing looking Building from the outside and not much better on the
inside. When it came my turn to enter the cubicle I sat down and waited for
someone to arrive, when they appeared I explained my situation and all the
emotion welled up inside me, as much as I tried to hold it in, the tears just
popped out. The really nice woman Said "Maria this is as low as it gets pet
you are on your way up from here". In an abstract way I found that
comforting.
Day 5: 15th
January 2012... 7am again and I had an appointment with the stairs in the
Hallway again. There were other bodies hanging around today. One guy was
slouched up against the wall, he looked ill I wasn't sure I should say
anything. I was afraid to talk actually. Then I braved it " are you
alright" I said in my best Dublin accent, he answered again in a real thick
Dublin accent "ahhh I didn't sleep A wink all night two fellas were
fighting over a bit of dust on the table"! In my mind I was saying
"we'll that's ridiculous two grown men fighting over a bit of dust, you'd
imagine they'd get a bit of Mr. sheen and wipe it up"!!!! Thankfully I
didn't verbalise that, as quick as I thought it, I as quick realised he was
talking drugs and not Mr. Sheen dust! I was learning fast.
My knowledge of
the drug culture was not very good, I had some basic Idea of course I did,
however names of specific drugs beyond hash, coke and heroin I was not familiar
with, and so sometimes terms being used and my interpretation where just not
computing.
I was starting to feel like I was making progress, I was
starting to feel more in control. However I really hadn't hit rock bottom, the
next few days Positive as I was, my life was heading downwards on a slippery slope
and there was an air of uncontrollably yet I had an “I will get through this” attitude!
Family of six made homeless News from the 13/8/2014
No comments:
Post a Comment