Thursday, 2 October 2014

Pay it Forward

12. Pay it Forward: "I give with my soul in gratitude to my benefactors gone before me and I the beneficiary, I give with the only expectation that the concept of giving continues and the only receipt being that of joy in seeing lives change for the better". – Maria Sheridan 


“If you can’t feed a hundred people, then just feed one.”  - Mother Teresa


I now have 12 steps to what is needed to possess an Attitude of Gratitude that I know will inspire and uplift you. You also have a space in your own life to write your own gratitude’s. If you truly want to make a difference to others then I recommend these 12 steps. It is my goal that when the book is born that it will reach the four corners of the earth.  I am so grateful for the opportunity to create “THE” book and for the circumstances which brought me to the point of taking action. Remember you are AMAZING you are FULL of LOVE, YOU ARE FANTASTIC; YOU POSESS AN ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE. And YOU ARE WORTHY OF IT! Now PAY IT FORWARD.


EXERPTS FROM MY JOURNAL:

29 January 2013

It’s been a while since I have written here. I have had a difficult time re-visiting this time last year and re-living for the sake of the book the same emotions. I really didn’t understand what a dark place I was in because the light is shining so bright in my life right now. It is not just the darkness of my own story; you live through other people’s stories too especially those you share a room with. I was very blessed that I am stronger than I give myself credit for, and that I got out of that part of a system quickly. I know that when out of the Social Welfare System altogether, I will be totally free. However I can think of several other worse situations to be in. Still in a state of transition no longer homeless, but still in transition non-the-less, I thank my Lord…..I thank him for saving me from a life termed homeless in a state of being!

I have struggled emotionally whilst writing and have been hitting brick walls writers block it seems! I'm finding it difficult to deal with the emotion. I never really dealt with what was happening or spoke to anyone really because I just wanted to get through it! I wanted to keep my head up and run to my goal of getting a home, securing some work and earning an honest income. I didn't deal with the emotion I just kept my eye on that goal. Today I spoke to a Coach, Howard Hughes, we are going to be working together on helping me sort this out ,get focused on the goal of getting this book finished with the tools I have at hand. Sometimes you have to accept that you need help in order to move forward. So grateful to Howard for reaching out. XxMxX ;-)



9 February 2013

Today I explained to my daughter that I am going getting some focus on writing my book and dealing with the emotion of what I went through.

I explained about going to work with Howard and that there is no shame with opening up if you need help dealing with any emotional upset in our lives. I know she understood! I haven't been able to be this open about what it was like because I am only feeling it in reality now! Sometimes I laugh sometimes I cry, other times when I see how dangerous it was in that first nine days, I feel that fear and then embrace my strength.

I truly don't expect anyone that thinks they know me or even those that do know me to understand why the Heck I put myself through such an ordeal and it wasn't to get attention, I could think of a much better way to get attention than being Homeless. I did it to gain back my independence and now to be a voice for those who can't find theirs!


I have met some amazing and real people; I have met the most desperately unfortunate people and thee most humblest and kind people. I am grateful for these experiences and I find strength in every step forward! Thank you to my family for your love and support and my daughter Rebekah for trying to understand. I love her so much xxMxx


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