11. Believe: “Act with a purpose, have confidence in the truths that surround you, and then in the absence of proof that they exist, just BELIEVE” – Maria Sheridan
“Today you are you! That is truer than true! There is no
one alive who is you-er than you”!
-Dr Seuss
We have the ability and capability to believe in
ourselves.
ELAINE S. DALTON said “Believe in
yourselves; believe that you are never alone”. Believe that you will always be
guided”.
We do not need the approval of others, we do not need
because we just are! What I mean is we are noble and royal in our own right
“believe it”. We are infinite and eternal capable of doing anything we put our
minds to and our back into it! Self-belief and hard work towards our goals and
dreams are within our grasp, within our making, within our doing! As the great
Nike ad say’s “Just Do It” I would add because you CAN!
Excerpts from My Journal
11th January 2012
I felt like I was
on death row. I felt like a failure, I felt humiliated, withdrawn, withheld, as
far away from life but very aware I had no home and felt emptiness, abandonment
and a hole so deep only for the company of my daddy and his direction I was like
a robot making my way to a homeless unit to register as Homeless.
January a year
ahead I got up out of my bed in my Apartment and received a call to go into
work in an emergency. Work, Home, Bed. Three things a person shouldn't ever
take for granted. I'm no alcoholic, not a battered wife, not a mental Health
patient nor a criminal just out of Jail nor am I drug dependent, I had
experienced maybe not a new kind of Homeless state however a homeless type that
Ireland doesn't have a word to describe. I was what I now term as middle class
homeless, homeless in a state of transition not a state of being! Today is a a
very Bright day. I love you Dad for Being in my life without you and Mum that
day I doubt I be here today XxMxX ;-) ♥ eternally grateful!
12 January 2013
There's times you
just know that someone's looking out for you above, today is one of those days.
I'm falling in and out of memories of last year this time last year. I'd spent
my first night in a dirty, filthy, mankey Hostel, it was Dark, smelly from
puke, pee, alcohol, drugs etc., it was dark, dreary, full of random screams,
shouts and a language I was unfamiliar with. I'm not a fearful person, however,
I felt fear and I felt lonely and alone. Today I may still have to face fear in
the eye once in a while, however I know I'm not alone and I know I am loved.
I'm grateful for experience, I wouldn't wish to go back but I have no regrets.
XxMxX ;-) ♥
19 January 2013
Today whilst I'm
grateful to be, and grateful for so many things I'm still feeling the intensity
of this day last year and the dark walk I had to take this morning last year. I
was (for the want of a less intense explanation) Suicidal! It was a brief and passing
intense thought as I passed over The River Liffey without Jumping in, but the
thought was present, then I very quickly thought of why, why was this
happening, why me, is there a purpose this fell upon my door and what can I do
with this. I was mad, enraged that I was being treated this way, and thought if
I had to go back to that Grubby Hell hole they call a shelter, I'd be joining
the drinkers and then I wouldn't have to care. What helped get
me through? Phone calls from a friends, My Family ( mum, dad, Sister and
Family, Jean, Aoife, and Rebekah) Aoife and Jean each going through their own
pains and suffering still reaching out still finding time to call. I will be
forever grateful to ALL-that did! There are others but funny never who you
expect but always who you need at the time! The people above were my constants,
these people where in my face constantly encouraging me till I found my feet
again! My parents literally putting the phone in my hand to the girl looking
after my case, I told her I'd rather be on the streets than go back to the
Hostel and she understood and told me to leave it with her. This day night last
year I walked into the arms of Angels. When I did I felt hope again! XxMxX ♥ :-) I am so grateful to be alive and to Share this Story! Much love!
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